Tuesday, May 6, 2025

Is the Catholic Church a sinking ship?

With an estimated 1.406 billion baptized Catholics worldwide as of 2023, Vatican City is the Pope’s home and the vital center of his spiritual activities and governance. 

Let’s look at the Vatican's books as far as public records allow. 2021 is the last year with figures available. Revenues were €770 million; expenditures were €803 million, which left a deficit of €33 million. By 2023, the deficit had exploded to over €83 million—270% growth. Vatican City employees (again, an ancient figure—4,822 people in 2016) are screaming for a COL adjustment and threats of unionization. Meanwhile, court cases of embezzlement added to the continuing sad tale of clergy sex abuse have reduced revenues.


In short, it's a hot mess, to use a technical term. 135 octogenarians are vying for the honor of inheriting this disaster in the making. What could go wrong? The promise of a smoke signal will tell us who gets the impossible job.


Perhaps the real debate is whether “the old-time Latin religion” has better branding than a more egalitarian version. Maybe they’ll find an ecclesiastical Elon to root out waste and corruption. Perhaps the New Pope will sell it and turn Vatican City into a spiritual Disneyland—an updated version of the Avignon Captivity, and outsource the actual administrative governance to Manila.


U.S. Cardinal Seán P. O’Malley, president of the Pontifical Commission for the Protection of Minors, third from left, attends the Mass on the fifth day of the “novendiali,” nine days of mourning for Pope Francis, in St. Peter’s Basilica at the Vatican April 30, 2025. (CNS photo/Lola Gomez)
PS. Those clown suits are pretty ridiculous. Even a bit frociaggine!

Friday, May 2, 2025

It’s a cult damn it. Nothing more.

“Love your kids more than evolution requires.” --David Brooks


I was just listening to a podcast by Andrew Gold, interviewing Jon Atack (A Piece of Blue Sky), about Charlie Manson and Scientology. Alack describes a cult in its simplest form as a group that reveres a particular leader or doctrine. Bow down and surrender. Isn’t that the first thing you heard after you’d knocked on the door? 


A general rule is that cult leaders are not necessarily brilliant, or enlightened, or even educated. As a matter of fact, very often they are none of the above, but they know how to weave a spell, to hypnotize, to create a myth, and make promises that sell themselves. The best and the worst were con men (or women) with an uncanny ability to mirror our insecurities and then reflect back a crafted solution that paid them, usually more than its real value.


In the late 1960s, particularly in California, a new group of high-flying self-help gurus emerged, promising a level of personal awareness that would free us — if we worked with them. We were told that we’d been programmed by a familiar network of parents, schools, pastors, priests and rabbis, tribal culture, liberal (or conservative) political prejudices, the sexual taboos that hounded us along with innumerable generations before us. The gurus pointed to obvious evidence, and we jumped at a ready solution. We’d all suffered through the deadening post-war social homogenization. We’d all experienced the ever-present threat of nuclear annihilation, driving under our desks since the first grade (I remember these drills today when the threat of armed maniacs in schools is very real and certainly statistically more deadly). The Haight-Ashbury Summer of Love erupted and, I think, clearly demonstrated a deep hunger for relief.


The new age gurus promised that we could be deprogrammed from this hypnotic state. This was an attractive offer. It was universally agreed among my affluent college-educated peers that we were all caught in the thrall of automatic action and reaction. We also felt that our level of discomfort was somehow unfair. It was just hard to name the culprit. We were told that the buck stopped with us, but we had to pinpoint who we were “being” when push came to shove. A friend paid a sizable chunk of money to spend a long, sleepless weekend sitting on the floor of a yoga studio, asking and answering the repeated question “Who are you?” 


We were told that any possible freedom or newly discovered enlightenment would require work. We rolled up our sleeves and opened our wallets, or at least contrived alternative ways to pay for services. There were groups and rivalries. Bob Hoffman badmouthed Werner Erhard. Mainline Gurdjieff groups paid no attention to Claudio Naranjo’s Enneagram. Gurdjieff teachers questioned the credentials of people who set themselves up as doing “The Work.” Oscar Ichazo sued Helen Palmer, and Scientology had a very long list of defectors in the docket, including Werner Erhard’s est. 


The infighting became cannibalistic. Here’s an example--Scientology sued the Cult Awareness Network, which bankrupted them with the massive legal fees required to defend themselves. Scientology, through an agent, then purchased the shell of CAN for the fire-sale price of $25,000 and made it an arm of the Church of Scientology, which became the resource for distraught parents whose children had become Moonies, an Osho Sannyasin--or recruits for Scientology’s Sea Org. And the Scientologists in charge took their jobs very seriously. I was on the phone with them when a concerned family member raised concerns about the “human-development” seminar company I worked for. They knew the precise questions to ask to uncover a cult.


This kind of feeding frenzy spread like wildfire in dry grass. Not only were our leaders fighting amongst themselves, with lawsuits and unbecoming slander and innuendo, but we took on each other with a righteous, determined vengeance to do the hard work of Ego Reduction. If we were not aware of our patterns of programmed behaviors, rackets, bank, negative behaviors, without lapsing into passive-aggressive behavior ourselves, how could we root them out? Like good soldiers in the war against the dark side, we ganged up on each other, all with some expression of gratitude or at least lack of complaint. In retrospect, our behavior was more like gang bangers than seekers after truth or truth warriors. It also served a dual purpose. It deflected attention from the leaders who were more like tribal Neanderthals with automatic weapons than compassionate, enlightened beings acting for the deepest good of all humankind. 


I knew one of these gurus for almost 30 years. It was an on-again,off-again acquaintance. Bob Hoffman was a very difficult man, most likely suffering from a narcissistic personality disorder. I cannot say that he was dumber than a stump. I don’t know his IQ, though I do know that he dropped out of school in about the 6th or 7th grade and never received a GED. For the almost 30 years I knew him, he never finished a book though he did try several times. He opened E.M. Forster’s “Maurice” when he heard that it was his gay novel, but he never finished it. He told me that the storyline was too bleak. He also tried Christopher Isherwood’s “A Single Man," but lost interest when he realized Isherwood was not Danielle Steel. He asked me to fill him in on the end of the story. He was disappointed. He loved a happy ending. 


Hoffman channeled the Quadrinity Process from his spirit guide, his psychotherapist, Siegfried Fisher. Because it came from “the other side” Hoffman claimed the highest level of validity. He would stand in front of a group and ramble. I never saw him go into anything like a trance. Most times, the sessions were recorded and Hoffman had them transcribed, edited, and cleaned up by a small group of people who had had, admittedly, some rather remarkable personal experiences following this otherworldly methodology. Because Hoffman tried to hide that he had actually been Fisher’s patient, the whole tale became twisted with lies and information that was “somewhat less than factual,” and it became ripe ground for manipulation.


When I read some well-thought-out passage online attributed to Hoffman, I know that it was obviously written by a ghost. Hoffman liked it short, dirty, and crude. His teaching style was in-your-face aggressive. On a scale of professional to barbarian, he was unapologetically barbarian. He “broke you down to build you up,” and you had to be grateful for his gifts of wisdom. You did things his way, or you’d be shut out. Some of the people who succeeded him will boast they never stooped to or countenanced his crude confrontation, that they told him so to his face, brave souls. They stretch the truth. Every one of them would have to admit to strained working relationships. At some point, everyone close to him just blocked his ranting, and as long as he got paid, he learned to live with it. 


But the adjustments, the edits, the lies are necessary. Hoffman is still the guru face of the Process that bears his name. It is a cult. Is there something more? Is there anything that can be saved from this river of teaching? I will also tackle the question of whether the Western adaptation of Buddhism loses something by closely identifying with the Self-Help Industry. Stay tuned.

 






Saturday, April 12, 2025

Rato Khyongla Rinpoche died this morning.

24 May 2022 

Dharamsala, HP, India


Khyongla Rato Rinpoche died this morning in McLeod Ganj. He was probably 101 years old. The registry of births in Tibet was not very precise when he was born, but who’s counting? My landlord, Hari Singh, who has been his driver at least since the onset of COVID, just texted me.


Hari called Rato “The Holy One” out of his deep respect and love. I called him “Chuck Rinpoche.” 


Perhaps 8 months ago, Hari asked if his wife could use my kitchen to cook a meal for the Rinpoche. He’d made a special request to eat some of Reshma’s home-style cooking. The flat was also easier for Rato to negotiate, and the seating was more comfortable. I said, of course. We all had greeting scarfs, and Hari lit a smudge pot smoke offering on the steps. At about 1 PM, we welcomed Geshe Nicky Vreeland, followed by Rato, helped by his attendant Norbu. 


The food was terrific—lamb curry, North Indian style. Watching Rato, Nicky, and Norbu eat with such gusto amazed me. Reshma carefully prepared the Rinpoche’s dish with rice, smaller pieces of mutton, and lots of gravy. 


My friend Alex Kype was also there. He’d warned me to be on my best behavior. The Rinpoche was high up the ladder of Buddhist royalty. I sat next to Rato, and Nicky was to his left. Rato's voice was barely audible, but Nicky repeated his words. In the course of the conversion, Rato told a story about when he went to New York City in 1968 to found the Tibet Center. He found a small apartment midtown, but he had no money. So he went to work as a stock boy in B. Altman at their Midtown flagship store, Fifth Avenue and 34th Street. No one could pronounce his name, so he told them to call him Chuck. He started laughing at the memory. I jumped in and asked if I could call him Chuck Rinpoche. He laughed more. 


Rato’s scholarship and dedication to the Way were remarkable and revered over several incarnations, but he’ll always be just Chuck Rinpoche to me. 


Thank you for your visit. We were honored.


Lama Zopa Rinpoche visiting Khyongla Rato Rinpoche. New York, USA, August 2016. Photo by Ven. Losang Sherab.



*This is an interesting factoid. “Chuck” probably earned minimum wage in '68, which was $1.60 per hour (equivalent to $12.47 in 2021).


Saturday, March 22, 2025

The Realm of the Spiritual Exercises of Saint Ignatius


I was a Jesuit for eleven years and have some experience with the Spiritual Exercises of Saint Ignatius. I did the thirty-day retreat in the novitiate and a 19th annotation retreat when deciding whether to be ordained or leave the Society. Finally, a friend, a secular Jew and a man of deep compassion, asked me to lead his Episcopalian wife through them while she underwent treatment for leukemia. This is that story.


This last experience was profound and, in many ways, signaled that the Exercises, as Jesuit discipline, had escaped the shelter and confines of the Order that Ignatius founded and had been home to them for 500 years.


Daniel Shurman’s wife, Bonnie Johnson, had been diagnosed with Leukemia. She was going to be in isolation for at least 30 days while her immune system was destroyed so that she could receive a bone transplant. She decided to undertake the Exercises while being forced to be virtually alone.


Thirty days became almost 80 days and included several near-death experiences. I suspected that she had a very grave diagnosis and that the chances of her survival might be slim.  Her doctors confirmed this as the treatment progressed. This might be more like hospice work than the Exercises as I had experienced them. 


It’s a given that a director of the Exercises will have his or her own director.  I was then and still am on the fringes of the Catholic community. I reached out for backup and consulted with several Jesuits but decided to use my Zen teacher as my guide rather than any of the directors with whom I’d talked. This was, I suppose, a result of my own needs, but the level of discomfort among the Jesuits I spoke with about dealing with death and the process of meditation was startling.  Another factor was my gut told me the best way to do the Exercises exactly as Ignatius indicated (or as best as I could), without any interpretation or adaptation, and just allow whatever grace was available to work through on its own.  This is how my teacher and I work with the koans, which are more recondite than the Exercises, traversing language, culture, and time very distant from our own. 


Most of the Jesuits I talked with tinkered with the Exercises, substituting their more modern, enlightened take on Ignatius’s straightforward and rigorous approach. It’s impossible to avoid interpreting, adding layers of meaning. Sometimes, this helps, but more often, it gets in the way. My work on the koans leads me to believe there is a level of work that’s like hitting gold—beyond experience and interpretation. It is unpredictable.


In Bonnie’s case, it was a given that she’d interpret. She was a woman of extraordinary accomplishment both in her personal life and her intellectual life, a leader in her Episcopal community as well as someone whose work was highly regarded in the world of Silicon Valley, where she explored the effects of technology from the human side, both in product development and user interface. But even during the strenuous medical treatment, she always returned to the sequence of meditations, the specified number of prayers and meditations, and the examen, as closely as possible to Ignatius’s recommendation.


When she was finally released from Stanford Hospital, the medical team told her that they’d done about all they could and that she ought to go home and get her affairs in order. It was unexpected when her blood indicators showed that she was disease-free after a few months—almost miraculous. During what is called “The Election” in the Exercises, she looked at ordination in the Episcopal church. Within a few months, she began a three-year program at the Episcopal Divinity School in Cambridge, worked on the connections between the exercises and the mysticism of Julian of Norwich, asked the well-known author Bill Barry, S.J. to be her spiritual director, edited one of his books about friendship with God, began a career as a lay preacher, and worked as a chaplain in nursing homes on North Carolina where she and Daniel lived on the outer banks. It was more than eleven years before her cancer returned with a vengeance, and she died. Alas, there was no “real” miracle to use for canonization—just the total miracle of life itself.


Although I am still skeptical about the Exercises and what they do, that mindset exists more in the realm of speculation, which is where it should be. I do think/know that Ignatius’s Spiritual Exercises come from another source, which is precisely where to look. 


When I seek inspiration to work for justice and make a difference, I reread Alinsky’s rules for radicals to get a template. When I want to be inspired by the life of Jesus and search there to discern the Will of the Creator, I turn towards the Exercises. This gift from Ignatius and the Spirit has escaped the bounds of his organization. Exactly right again. 


This is Bonnie’s story.


Bonnie’s Writing:

"Finding God in All Things"

https://jesuskoan.blogspot.com/2021/06/finding-god-in-all-things.html


Bonnie Johnson Shurman

Jan. 20, 1944-June 2, 2011


For more of my writing on Father Ignatius’s Exercises, here is a list:

Newsflash! Pope announces changes to the Spiritual Exercises

https://jesuskoan.blogspot.com/2024/01/big-changes-for-jesuit-spirituality.html

Looking at The Particular Examen of Saint Ignatius with Fresh Eyes

https://jesuskoan.blogspot.com/2022/01/looking-at-particular-examen-of-saint.html

Occam’s Razor of Emotional Discernment

Novacula Occami

https://jesuskoan.blogspot.com/2021/09/occams-razor-of-emotional-discernment.html


Head versus Heart, Faith and Reason, Reason and the Emotions

The Discernment of Spirits in the Spiritual Exercises

https://jesuskoan.blogspot.com/2021/10/head-versus-heart-faith-and-reason.html

The Dynamism of Desire, A Book Conversation

https://jesuskoan.blogspot.com/2022/01/the-dynamism-of-desire-book-conversation.html