Just after I took my first vows as a Jesuit in 1968, Bill Guindon*, the newly appointed Provincial, hired Arthur Anderson, a corporate consulting firm, to work with the entire New England Jesuit community to re-vision the province's works. This period remains quite vivid in its emotional impact, though some of the particulars have faded away. Guindon and his Socius, Paul Lucy, were my direct superiors most of the time I was a Jesuit.
The team from Arthur Anderson soon learned they would guide a “discernment” though the word didn't exist in their vocabulary. Of course, they agreed and were even eager to learn, but they also had their requirements for the makeup of our Jesuit teams. We were all included regardless of grade. I had only taken my vows a few months before, but in the egalitarian mix, I was chosen to work with Bob Drinan, then Dean of the Law School, regarding our political stance regarding the social apostolate. The committee was small, only four of us, perhaps due to a sizeable portion of our New England Jesuit brethren being old-time religion conservatives, even in the wake of Vatican II's closing.
Working together those few months was remarkable. Drinan was meticulous, always attending meetings on time, prepared and attentive, and never once pulling rank. I was a Jesuit scholastic, and he was the dean of a law school, but in our meetings, he treated me as his equal. He was an incredible listener and supportive of me, encouraging me to express my opinion and pointing out where it needed to be filled in. I learned so much.
In the end, Bob Drinan, his secretary, and I wrote the proposals and guidelines that would shape the political stance of the New England Jesuits. A year later, I went to work as a community organizer in South Boston, and in 1971, he ran for Congress on an anti-Vietnam War platform. (For which Jon Kerry, working for the campaign, suggested the slogan: “Vote for Father Drinan or Go to Hell!”)
In 1996 or 97, I read a small piece--it might have been in America or some Buddhist publication--Drinan, already in his 80s, had just completed a Zen sesshin under the direction of Father Robert Kennedy, Roshi. A sesshin makes the discipline of the Spiritual Exercises look tame. Twelve hours of silent meditation a day, usually in seated posture, in 4 blocks about three hours long with short periods of walking meditation, silent meals, a few hours of work practice, and interviews with the teacher. In the article, Bob spent only a few sentences describing how physically demanding it was and paragraphs about the insights and “consolations” he received when Kennedy celebrated daily Mass. I was incredibly moved; he jumped into a demanding spiritual practice with both feet and lived to tell the tale.
I googled Bob Drinan, found an email address at Georgetown, and wrote to him. I said he probably didn’t remember me, but I filled in some places our paths had crossed and mentioned those few months 40 years ago when we worked together with the organizational consultants from Arthur Anderson. I told him that I had been deeply touched by the telling of his experience during sesshin and the Jesuit angle; I had been practicing Zen for almost 20 years, and I probably closed with some words of gratitude to him and how his path and service had touched me. I pressed send and forgot about it.
About a week later, he replied. It was not a formal, congressman-style “thanks for your concern about the important legislation, etc.”--I suppose that I am not alone in getting lots of those--but a very personal, connected note: Yes, of course, he remembered me; he was head over heels enthusiastic about his experience, encouraged me to keep up with my “Zen studies.” and he thanked me for undertaking it. I did not expect a response, yet he took the time, energy, and consideration to write a former Jesuit he’d known briefly 30 or more years in the past.
Nancy Pelosi was and still is my representative in Congress. For decades, I was very active in San Francisco politics, and at some constituent meeting, I mentioned in conversation that I knew Bob. She quickly volunteered that he was her spiritual director, as he was for most of the Catholic representatives. The next news I had of Bob was when my representative, now Speaker Pelosi, wrote about her sadness at the passing of the “Father of the House.”
I tried to remember whether or not he had put up much of a fight when Pope John Paul II demanded that Pedro Arrupe order Bob to leave the House of Representatives. I couldn’t imagine that he didn’t go without a few well-thought-out and carefully researched objections, but he did. He was professed and a Jesuit through and through.
He was a hero of mine; he still is. He tried to map a path for a Catholic to participate fully in a pluralistic society even when dogma, or at least a literalistic interpretation of the teaching, sets you at odds with the tolerance a democracy requires. His stance on abortion is a good example. And I fully supported fierce opposition to American interventionism.
I wish I could figure out how to live a complex life fully. I suppose if I still felt a strong impulse to live a life with vows and promises, that kind of spiritual discipline, and felt that I could do that without compromising or being compromised, I would look to a life like Bob’s or Dorothy Day’s as a great model.
When I googled Bob about 40 minutes ago to check the date of his death, I found this piece about the file that the FBI kept on him and his efforts to see it. I think it is such a great story and shows how he operated.
http://goodjesuitbadjesuit.blogspot.com/2009/01/fr-robert-drinan-sj-was-under.html
*Regarding Bill Guindon, his vision and tenure as head of the New England Jesuits were remarkable. He was a visionary, and I was always surprised, even disappointed, that he was not tapped for a wider role.
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